Sunday, October 11, 2009

La Playa and then Some

Hey all. So this weekend is a holiday weekend. Naturally I don't remember which holidays but there was one on Friday and there's one tomorrow on Monday. So we don't have classes! I went to the beach yesterday and today and swam in the Mediterranean and laid out and enjoyed the sun. It was fantastic and a great way to relax and enjoy myself before the new week starts.

So here I am just sitting at Ciber Denia, not pronounced Cyber but Sea-ber. Haha. Not that that really matters.

I had a conversation with Christina the other day and she's really making me think about life--like what do I want to do with my life, what are my goals, who do I want to be and all that jazz. Then I was talking to Andrew and he was asking about who I am and how I'm so quiet and I dunno all these conversations have just got me really thinking about life and who I am.

I have come to no conclusions. That's for sure. But Spain has been the perfect place to contemplate. I'm near no one who knows me, if I wanted I could have reinvented myself and I dunno--it's like starting fresh. I want to go places in my life. I, like most, want the American dream--husband, house, two cars, 2.5 kids and a dog. Haha, it sounds so boring but it's what I want! But what do I want now? And what can I do to make that dream a reality? Does God even want that for me? Who does God want me to be? What kind of woman is God shaping me into?

I don't know why all of a sudden I'm starting this huge quest. Perhaps it's because I'm gone and I really have to rely on myself and on God in this foreign land. I don't even know if anything I am saying is making sense, I guess I'm just gabbing for a bit to anyone who's listening (or reading rather). Hmm. Who knows.

Ciber Denia plays some good music. Gotta love some good ole American top 40.

Hrm what else to write about. I'm kinda bored today. After the beach and lunch I took a two hour nap and now here I am. However, I ran out of money on my phone and because of the holiday I can't add more until Tuesday and so I have no way of reaching anybody and it kind of sucks! I feel so alone without my cell. Haha. Pathetic isn't it? But whatever.

SOoooo what's new with y'all? I tell you about me but what's new with you? Shoot me an email, you know I'd love that! Or even better write me some snail mail! I check the box at school every day anxious to see something for me. So far I've gotten two letters (thanks Uncle John and Aunt Janet and Bethany!) but I'm always eagerly waiting for more! :)

Welp I feel like I've exhausted all of my words at this point. Sad, I didn't even write that much, haha. But whatever. Love to you all.

3 comments:

Sheryl said...

oh yes you did. you wrote a lot. go back and read it through. God is working in your life big time. keep seeking Him and asking HIM what He wants!! what a great place to be. at the beginning of making lifelong decisions and making God the center of it!!

love you em.

Diane Fay (littlealma) said...

**** See my email sent to you!!! So glad you are asking these questions - Just remember you are a precious daughter of the King, He is always there with you, and rest in His guidance!

Big big hugs!!!!

Mom

bccarlso said...

Hey Ems! Glad you're enjoying it out there and have a chance to contemplate things! We can all use that type of time and prayer every once in a while. Though I'm with you, I dunno what exactly I'm supposed to be doing X years from now, but I think that's OK. Don't worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough worry of its own, etc… Love you Ems, and hope to get an email out to you soon! I'm too new fashioned to send a letter. ;)