Sunday, March 23, 2014

Things...

I was going through some old paperwork and filing things away when I came across a list.  This list had two categories: "Things I Like: Me" and "Things I Like: Misc Others".  I found it kind of interesting, so I thought I'd share it with you here!

Things I Like: Me
1.  I persevere
2.  I love others well
3.  I work hard
4.  I am intelligent
5.  I'm tenderhearted
6.  I always try my best
7.  I am passionate & real
8.  I'm honest, raw
9.  I'm creative
10.  I'm organized
11.  I'm a dreamer
12.  I'm beautiful

I need to memorize this list for the days when I feel like a failure, when I feel down in the dumps and worthless.  I'm still kind of shocked that I wrote this list.  I must have been feeling good when I wrote it!  I need to keep this list with me at all times, haha.

Now for the other list!

Things I Like: Misc Others
1.  My friends
2.  My family
3.  My church
4.  Coffee!  (coffee shops)
5.  Chocolate!
6.  Music
7.  Books/poetry (bookstores)
8.  Arts/crafts
9.  Learning new things
10.  Camping
11.  Adventures
12.  Outdoors
13.  Beaches, sunsets
14.  Bonfires (s'mores!)
15.  Dreams, goals
16.  COLORS!
17.  Lists/organizing
18.  Creating things
19.  Movies/TV (not all!)
20.  Exercising
21.  Good restaurants
22.  The arts in general
23.  The comics (Sunday's)
24.  Audrey Hepburn
25.  HARRY POTTER
26.  Alaska
27.  All the seasons
28.  Sewing things
29.  New/fun projects/dreams
30.  Traveling
31.  Spanish

Some of these seem random to me, like Spanish.  I would love to learn to be fluent in Spanish, but I don't know why its on a list of things that I like.  But this list just makes me feel alive.  It makes me feel joyful.  It reminds me of who I am.

I still have been struggling with lack of hours at work; I never found that second job, or another job in general.  I'm still looking.  But reading through this list has helped me realize that life is good.  I am not my work.  I am many more things than that.  I am a complex woman designed by God, created in his image.  And God has a plan for my life.  I need not fear.  I need to be strong and courageous.  (Easier said than done.)  "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self discipline."  2 Timothy 1:7.  We are not to be shy or timid or fearful!  But powerful, loving, and disciplined!

Not much new has been going on in my life lately.  Been on a couple first dates.  Nothing has come from any of them, though they've been a sufficient mix of fun and awkward.  Haha.  Lo (one of my best friends) moved back to California, where she's from.  That was really sad.  I don't think it's quite hit me yet that she's gone.  But I got to hang out with her a bunch before she left, so that was nice.  I'm trying to teach myself the guitar.  It's been a challenge.  I'm not sure I have the rhythm for it, like knowing when and how to strum, but we'll see.  I went to St. Joe this past weekend to go to a wellness conference with my mom.  It was nice to be home for a bit, got to hang out with another of my best friends, Kathryn.

So the year of the almond is going fairly well (if you remember from my last post)!  I'm still praying for the perfect job and the right guy to both come into my life.  But I know God will take care of me and he has the perfect plan in mind.  So I just need to have faith and trust in that plan.

I hope this post finds you all well.  Know that I love you.