Friday, October 31, 2014

As of lately..

Where to even begin...

Since I last wrote (in March!  Holy moly it's been a long time), I have lost my job (in June) and moved back home to St. Joseph, MI to live with my parents (August).  It's definitely not every 26 year-old woman's dream to be living with her parents...but I'm not gonna lie - it's been nice.  Having lived alone for a year and a half, it's nice to have "roommates" and people to talk to, real, live - in your face, talk to throughout the day, people.

For the first few months I just kind of relaxed and took it easy, all while looking for work.  I still kind of feel like I'm in this place where I "don't know what I want to be when I grow up."  So that makes things a little bit difficult.  I'm trying to figure out what my skills are, what I enjoy, where and what might be a good fit.

I feel that I'm 26...I should know what I want to do with my life!  I'm an "adult" and should have this figured out.  It's so frustrating.  And then I'm afraid that even if I do get a job - that I'd fail at it.  GAH!  Life can be so frustrating at times.  I wish God would just speak to me.  I wish he would yell and me and tell me where to look for work.  I feel like a lost sheep.  If you think of it, I'd love some prayers.

But anyway, in the mean time, I recently got a little part time job at a little place downtown SJ called The Broad Street Cafe.  It's been good to have a little income to be able to pay my bills and to have something to prevent me from sleeping my days away.  If you know the Carlsons - you know we love our late nights and sleeping in!  :)

Aside from all that work related stuff, I found out in June that I'm going to be an Aunt!  She (yes, she!) is due to be born February 16, 2015!  I cannot wait!  I cannot believe my brother is going to be a dad!  That is just crazy to me.  Ben and Kristen are going to be great parents - I just know it.  Kristen looks so cute with her growing belly.  I love it.  Even though we are far away, I'm still super excited.

Other little things - I have made some new friends at church.  That's been nice.  One of the girls is coming over tomorrow morning to make apple pie.  Yum!  I've joined a Monday night Bible study, studying the Psalms as prayers.  That's been good.  I also joined (this week!) my church's Christmas choir group.  We have rehearsals on Tuesdays.  I'm an alto.  It's been a while since I've sang in an organized choir (I sang in Gospel Choir at Calvin), but this should be good!

I found a cool thing online called "101 Goals for 1001 Days."  I wrote a list of 101 Goals.  I know now that a couple of months has passed, that some of my goals are a little unreasonable, but I've been having fun working on the ones that are doable.  For instance, I have done some writing (a poem, a haiku poem, and a short story for a writing competition), I have taught myself chess (although I think I've since forgotten how all the pieces move, haha), I'm attempting to learn a song on the piano (I need to get back at that!), amongst other things.  I need to print that list so it stands out more to me on a day-to-day basis.

I'm trying to think if there's anything else...but I'm drawing a blank.  Well, I guess that's my sign to "sign off" for now.  Thanks for reading.  I hope life is treating you well!  Seeeeee ya later!